So at my new job, I get to sit at a keyboard, and feed the computer the information it asks for.  This also means that I get to take my mp3 player with me and listen to my music.  Tonight while I was there, I had the group Fireflight selected to play, since I have a good amount of their music, and I was touched by the song off their For Those That Wait album called All I Need To Be.  This song just says everything about what the love of an amazing man has done for me.  I know that this is supposed to be a song about God, but unfortunately for God, he's not ever come close to making me feel the way this man does.  You'll find the lyrics underneath the video.  Enjoy.




Hoping with each new day
I'm moving forward, I push the fear away
And I let go
'Cause I'm so through with barely hanging on
Leaving what's in the past behind
I come closer to crossing over the line
And I won't stop
Until I get what I've been fighting for
You've said it all before

Tell me again that I am strong
Tell me again that I won't fall
I need you here to fix me where I'm wrong
Take me beyond what I can see
Break me, make me believe
You have made me all I need to be

Knowing all that I can do is be open when you start to move
In my heart
And now my god, I finally hear your voice
You've said it all before

Who I am is all I've got
And I can't be who I am not anymore

(I am strong, make me believe)
You have made me all I need to be
(I am strong, make me believe, make me believe)

So I have the next three days off, which is actually rather nice, considering that in a week and four days, things really kick off at my new job, and I'll only have one day off every week for three weeks.  This will be my mini-vacation prior to the madness of the holiday season.  Not that I'm going to complain mind you, because my paychecks for the entire month of December, will probably equal what I've made in the last two months combined, and probably more.  On that note, let me pause to say Huzzah!  The good news, is that during my brief vacation, I'll finally get around to getting my blog themes up on my website design blog.  Hopefully that will generate some extra post-holiday spending money for me as well.  So keep your eyes peeled for the unveiling of these themes over at Valued Jewels Design.

I just love this time of year, and for a few reasons:

• My birthday starts the 12 days of Christmas, because it's December 13th.
• I get to celebrate Thanksgiving and M's birthday sometimes on the same day, which means he gets to have a stellar feast for his birthday.
• I love Christmas Carols.  I love hearing them, and I love singing them.  Sometimes I cheat and sing them when it's the middle of July.  Why?  Because I'm a nonconformist, that's why.  *grin*
• It puts me in the right kind of spirit to take the time to look around me at all the wonderful things I have, and makes it harder for me to focus on the negatives.
• I just love Christmas decorations, and how they can make even the coldest winters seem warm and cozy, especially when you're surrounded by people you love.

So life is really starting to fall into place for me, on a scale I wasn't quite sure it would.  I'm starting to feel more of that solid ground under my feet, and it's such an amazing feeling.  To all of you, my friends and adopted family, thank you for bearing with me, for praying for me, and giving me words of wisdom when they were needed.  I count each of you as being a part of this path my life is on, and I wouldn't trade it for the world.  I look back at the last two years, and I'm left in bewilderment as just how wonderfully blessed I have been, and continue to be. Who knew?