So life is really starting to fall into place for me, on a scale I wasn't quite sure it would.  I'm starting to feel more of that solid ground under my feet, and it's such an amazing feeling.  To all of you, my friends and adopted family, thank you for bearing with me, for praying for me, and giving me words of wisdom when they were needed.  I count each of you as being a part of this path my life is on, and I wouldn't trade it for the world.  I look back at the last two years, and I'm left in bewilderment as just how wonderfully blessed I have been, and continue to be. Who knew?

This week, I'm choosing a song by Sting.  He's one of my favorite artists of all time, even though he's not entirely Rock-n-Roll.  This song is just very fitting with how things are going in my life at this time.  But I'm fortunate to be loved by a wonderful man and it is for him that I post this song.



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Sometimes it feels as if there's never enough time to do the things that you want to do in life.  So, in those rare moments when you find yourself having a few extra moments, do something nice for yourself, or someone you care a great deal about.  If you do that, you'll find that even if you don't get to do everything you wanted, you've at least you've done the things that really mattered.

I look back on what I've done with my life, and I sometimes wonder what I have to show for it all.  Then I smile that silly knowing smile, and I remember:

• I gave birth to four of the most amazing young boys that I know.  I am allowed to say that, because they are my boys.  S has taught me so much about grace and dignity, and my life is richer for it.  M has taught me how to laugh at myself, and know that it's okay to be who I really am.  T has shown me to take the simple joys in life and run free with them with reckless abandon.  G has shown me that it's not what you look like, it's how you love those around you.
• I am loved by the very best man in all the world.  I am allowed to say that, because he's done more for the benefit of my soul, my spirit, and has healed all the cracks that were in my broken heart.
• I have overcome most of what I've suffered, and because I have, I can be strong for those around me who cannot be strong for themselves.
• I'm educated enough to know that I've still got alot to learn, and I take every opportunity that presents itself to be smarter than I am at this moment.
• I have been able to forgive those who may not have earned it in their own right, simply because it was what I needed to do for my own sanity, and to be emotionally available to the people I care most about.

I'm glad that I took this time to write this post for myself, and the ones I hold dearest in my heart.  If any who read this blog find me having a moment when I seem to be overlooking what I wrote here today, please smack me in the back of my head and tell me to come back to this post and read it.  I'm serious, if you don't take a firm hand with me, I'm going to be too stubborn to do what is best for me.  I know I don't really have to say that to those of you who are my real life friends and family, because you do it for me each moment that I have you in my life.

No matter where I am going,
I hope you'll see me when I get there.

No matter what I say,
I hope you'll take the time to listen.

Because...

No matter where you are going,
I hope to be a part of your journey.

No matter what you say,
I'm going to love you anyway.

I'm happy to say that I've finally come to that exact moment where the rest of my life can begin.  Every chapter that can be finished, has been, leaving me with new pages to write.  I find myself standing on the edge of that cliff, and as I take that leap of faith, hoping that perhaps I can learn to fly, I realize there is solid ground beneath my feet.  There's nothing outside of pure and honest love that can give you the most solid ground in which to grow your roots, and watch your dreams sprout to life.  I thank each and every one of you that has given me this solid ground.  There's not enough time, nor enough words in the world to fully convey the depth of my gratitude.  You've seen me as I've bravely forded a new stream, knowing that the current would try to take me where I didn't want to go.  You were there to offer me a hand when I got caught in those currents.  If I were the captain of a ship, there's no better crew I'd want sailing with me.  I love you all so very much.  You're the best that this world has to offer.

When you're busy.  It seems that most of my time isn't my own anymore.  Not that I'm complaining, mind you.  Being busy is helping me work toward my goal.  Let me just tell you all how awesome my boys are.  Even in the midst of the changes in the past couple of years, they still manage to bring joy to me and their father.  They're such good boys, and I'm proud of each of them.  There isn't a day that goes by when my heart doesn't swell with the love they give me, and the love I feel for them.  They aren't the only wonderful people in my life right now.  I am so blessed to have some of the best friends anywhere.  Their support means more than I could ever find the words to express.  No more time for chatting, I'm off to do great things one day at a time.